Besides doing the posting and having my heavy breakfast, the song from Daniel Bedingfield " If you are the one " keep on playing on my mind... [" i don't want to run away but i can't take it , i don't understand , if i wasn't made for you, then why does my heart tells me that i am? "] the LYRICS of the song really surprise when i first heard it last two weeks when i was driving in KL...
Before that, i couldn't tell how much i damn bloody hate this song because too emO!!! but now this song tells exactly what i'm feeling and thinking right now, every single word and lyrics... not one of them i didn't feel or experience.
Maybe i need some time to relax and shift my focus on the things that i know i should be focusing on right now instead of thinking of HER again this morning. I can't control myself, although i attended NLP class ( nEuro-LiNguistic-pRogamming) which they teach you to control your feelings and emotion through state management but doesn't seems working. i think it's my choice that whether i want to do it or not.
WHen i finding some buddy to add into my contact list of friends from my email...... guess what, she is in there with HER pic.... i straight away have that weird feeling coming in again. I was talking to myself, if WE loves each other, why can't we be together? Just because we going to be in different place and time later, make us put a full stop there? or the question earlier that i was asking was right? maybe SHE doesn't loves me and i'm not the ONE? haha or maybe i SS too much , didn't notice that she treat me as a good friend?
i don't the answer for the moment. And i'm waiting for it. Never know when the answer will appear to me,BUT when i found the answer, it will surely change my perspective on HER...
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