Raining on Sunday

Sunday 28th dec 08

Today is the second day i've been waiting to tell her. i didn't contact her for the whole day yesterday... i thought i would need some time to think about it and yes i did, i've done it! but till eleven plus p.m saturday nite , she send a message to me... [Hey!:-)] i didn't realise it till half and hour later.... i was so happy that she send the message to me... i was wondering whether she have made up her mind on the decision or not... i send her back a message but she didn't reply. Until afternoon.......... no reply neither....

i'm waited patiently thought that she is busy or maybe forget to bring her phone out which she normally does....

at around 3 plus she send me a message saying ' Nothing already, no worries, cheers! bye='

i'm puzzle and very sad cause on saturday i thought i've made my decision, just one message from her yesterday, and guess what? i'm shaken by her...

is this ppl called it the power of love?
i never never thought i would go so deep.... never.... not until past few week ago, i've realize that...

i so damn bloody down on friday and saturday.... and now on sunday?

i love HER so much, cause i know that i'm willing to give up some of my dream for her, and i do hope that we could be together...

but nevertheless, i think the answer from her is still the same.... nothing could change!

this might show that i might be foolish waiting for her and she didn't said a word that she might take into consideration that we would be together since she is leaving to states.

or maybe she doesn't like me as much as the EX cause they just seperated last month... then why they start at first? since she knows that she is leaving....?

i don't know....

i'm puzzled rite now, nothing much i could do... i don't even know how to face her when we meet... still as good friends? or not anymore?

before i came back from KL to tpg, i left kl and HER with a heavy heart... but after all this happen in a sudden, i don't really know whether that i want to be in KL at this moment...
i'm so down , sad , disappointed of course but luckily i'm in taiping, a peaceful town, to just quiet me down and to relax...

however i still love HER , i believe she the ONE until i'm proven wrong... i'm still waiting although i know that not even worth it for me to just to wait wait and wait... but what to do...
nothing i could do.... i feeling a bit of hopeless rite now... do I?